Pantomime animosity.

I'm the boy that looks excited
I'm the boy that's gonna fall apart
Candyfloss, I lie to myself
I'm the boy that eats his heart out

I know I should be more careful
I know I should watch where I've been
Candyfloss and she's a safecracker
She kissed me first and then broke in

We slip and slide on the stay-together landmine
I make my mind up to never be myself
And every time I make a rhyme
I live my life for someone else

Oh-whoa-whoa
Oh-whoa-whoa
Oh-whoa-whoa

She's in the kitchen with bitter diamond drunks
(She's in the way)
I'm on the sofa hoping she leaves that punk cause
(I'm in the way)

I'm the boy with the poetry power
I'm the boy, smells like flowers
Every time I make a rhyme
I live my life like I wasn't invited

Oh-whoa-whoa

She's in the way
I'm in the way

I'm the boy that looks excited
I'm the boy that's gonna fall apart
Candyfloss, she kissed me first
And I'm the boy, don't get me started

I know I should be more careful
I know I should watch where I've been
Candyfloss, she's a safecracker
She kissed me first, then broke in

Oh-whoa-whoa

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Put your head in the clouds and your feet will do the same.

Sunday, January 10, 2010 @ 7:36 PM

Mood: Surreal
i can't believe tomorrow is the big day, when just 'yesterday', i was sitting for the exams that proved four years of secondary school life.

To-may-to. Po-tay-to. Fuck-fuck-yo.

THAT was some random phrase i read in the latest novel which i'm hooked on - Fourth comings by Megan McCafferty. It's been stuck in my head all day, for no particular why. Not that i'm a big fan of her, but i take great delight in reading this particular book 'cause there's so much of the not-so-obvious content to the very superficial face of the American culture. That refers to what i call their sex language. Well, if you understand. That includes made-up phrases like 'buttplugs' and a phrase like 'unite the vagina and the mouth', etc. These were very openly used in the novel, (yeah), which was new. (In other words, none of us, 'virgin' writers, would have done.)

Went for japanese lesson today. It was another day piled with all the extra vocabulary and 'counters'. Tiring? Indeed. Currently, i'm too lazy to flip through the foreign language and remember all the hoopla. If my brain could just stop feeling figety about what's to come tomorrow, i would have relentlessly prowled through all that for the first time.

Sighs. Whyyyyy had i promised myself that i would read through the 16 pages worth of romanji? Yet another empty promise.

Enough of the sidetracking.
After having done meticulous research these past weeks, i've basically made a simple conclusion. Having been through all the brochures and the multiple, never-ending websites, i think there's only one thing that came out from all that.

Narrowing down your multi-interests to just one is an extremely uphill task to fufill.

Fighting for a wide range of interests all at one go, now, THAT, is being plain STUPID. Taking them slowly one at a time, that's a step to reaching your goals and not wearing your greedy pants upside down.

I haven't actually really given much thought to where i would end up if i pursued ALL my interests, which is to be a graphic designer, cum animator, cum illustrator, cum writer, cum games designer (the artistic part), cum childcare educator, cum manymanymany more. -----GOD. i want EVERYTHING.

If only my parents could agree that the market for animation in singapore is not bite-size, and that there're a lot of companies out there. So that i could jump from one to another when i feel like it.

If only everything comes faster than you can say 'BINGO'.

Funnily, i find truth in what the pricipal of SP said, when i went the their open house on saturday. (Most of what he said was propaganda though. Like how good their school was, their core values, their courses blah.)
FYI: I'm not trying to be philosophical here.

'When one door closes on you, another door awaits you.'

This quote was surprisingly mindblowing although i've already seen it in print a gazillion times. However, having heard it being said out loud for the first time reminded me once again, of how much impact it could make on a struggling, listless soul.

i feel like an invalid,
now that the future is nearing. 'Future' here means the prospects of finding a job, dating, getting married, settling down and all the things you do once you're of legal age and when the 'teenager' label falls off. It all seems so huge, soo substantial, sooo behemothic, soooo gargantuan, sooooo__________ (Help! i need a word here. What's that word again?). Well, you get the meaning.

Its basically impossible if i try to imagine my life 20 years from now. I'm starting to finally understand and come to terms with the word 'maturity'.

I used to think,
'hey, will i grow as tall as my father?'
'why does everything around me look so giantic?' -when i was the short one and table and chairs became smaller as i grew taller.
'why is kissing the first step that people who claim they love each other take?'
'how do you know that he/she's the right one?'
'where do people get the courage to trust someone entirely that they're willing to live with each other?' -when all the time the word 'marriage' made me conjure morbid till-death-do-us-part metaphors.
'why do adults have sex?'
'why do adults marry?'
'why is there so much emphasis on the wedding day and so little about the fifty years that come after?'
'why do people want to marry in the first place when in the end, they get a divorce?'
'why do adults always do the stupid things that they do?'
...and the list goes on.

And everytime, my conclusion would always be -Wait till i get there and maybe, just maybe, i'll have answers to my questions.

Come 2010, i have my answer finally.
An answer that answers all my questions.

The fact that whatever lies ahead of us is an unknown, and only by treading the unknown, (stepping forward, making decisions, trusting that they'll bring you somewhere), will we get to see the future we've always wondered about.

Just like how you solve questions with an unknown, you never know what's the answer until you do the question yourself.

You may be skeptical about all that rubbish i said above. But i didn't ask for an audience, all right? GRARRR. Even after having my answer, i still stick fervently and loyally to the 'I SHOOT AGEING' belief.

I choose to end my post with the following sentence because (a)it is absurdly scary and (b)the truth.

We marry the person we love but forget to love the person we marry.

Ladies and gentleman, welcome to the candy empire.

Hello. My name is liying, without any spacing in between.
I'm obviously a girl, if it isn't obvious enough. I also have this super, uber, long name which says Any one will do, its your choice.

My awesomeness can't be contained in such a teeny-weeny box because i'm sensational. Yes, I'm loved, bayy-beh. I blog about everything under the sun and anything that's the past, present and the future. My profile page is non-existent, because its not long enough.

In more detail, click here.

16 on 18 June. She's single & loving it.

She's like TV, you see her, hear her like CD.

But clearly you'd be on different degree levels, whatever. No, you can't touch her.

Give her a pink candyfloss, and you’ll be loved by her.

Prioritize her, you automatically jump to the top of her list.

She says MARSHMELLOWS, KOKO CRUNCH and HONEY STARS are the happenning.

She is bubbly, temperamental, and fabulous.

She takes pride in being a bakaranger, as bakaRED the dolphin. In fact, BAKAS are her first priority.

What you see is what you get.
She's what you see and what she will be.
That's just who she is.

If she wants to do this, i'm sorry, but you can't make her do that.

There's more to what meets the eye. So, although first impressions last forever, blow that.

Judge her based on what's inside, not 'the cover'.

You are perfection. She's your reflection.

She is nobody.
Nobody is perfect.
HAHA, erase that.

She does what everyone else does. She seeks perfection and strives to keep her inconsistent sanity in check.

She's an artist. She draws, yes.

The weather forecasts her mood, and her mood predicts her dress code.

Unpredictable? Yes. Like the river currents, she changes course fast.

You may not be able to keep up with her; because with her around, you never know what's going to happen next.

In short, she's versatile.

Wild at times, but she's a fun-loving, peacelover. (Of couse, she tries hard to be the peacemaker.)

Her personality doesn't lie. She keeps her promises and am true to her word.

Give her no permission? She breaks the rules.

She doesn't conform. She loves fashion. Her style is imagination.

Don't ever try to play her. Don't lie, don't patronise, just change your ways.

Lights out, there's no room for her to cry. So tell her what went wrong.

For every door that's open, she's not going to shut it. Why no, she prefers to take her chances.

The issue on weight ticks her off.

She desires a lower metabolism 'cause its really difficult for her to put on the extra kilograms.

Unless you want to feel guilty for the rest of your life, do not ever mention the words 'you are skinny' because it does hurt.

It would be a great blow to her self-esteem. No, correction. She would be greatly demoralised.

Be kind to her, she forgives and forgets.

She must confess she loves her bloody punctuality, though she tries to be on time.

She yearns morning rains and waking up to the sounds of waves.

To watch the stars and have a clover leaf, its luck.

Everything ‘bout her screams water and she thinks water is the coolest drink.

She loves everything and hates nothing.

She’s into swimming, lifesaving, wakeboarding, drumming, rollerblading, rollercoasters, glow-in-the-darks, bunk beds, japanese, anime, audition, manga and her eekies.

She loves sleeping, but hey, she's no pig.

She loves shiny things because they catch the eye. Diamonds, chandeliers, shoes, bags, anything glitter goes.

She loves lipgloss, eyeliner, red nails and her red highlights. Yes, she's vain, but isn't that what makes a girl?

A huge fan of Walt Disney, she espcially loves the redhead little mermaid, Ariel.

Although she sucks at it, she loves jigsaw puzzles.

She likes to see the pieces come together, just like how she makes life to be - a portrait.

Her world is filled with colours, especially RED.scarlet, aqua and azure.

There’s no such thing as black and white, so don’t tell her what’s right from wrong.

She wants good riddance to evil, global warming and poverty.

If you smoke, she bites.

Keep your nails off the chalkboard, unless you're trying to bring her down.

Music plays a large part in her life. She enjoys stuffing earpieces in her ears and hear the music explode.

Sometimes, she tries to escape from burnin' out.

Give her a super shock, blow her off the block. Make her wanna. You're welcomed.

Rock. She likes it when you pop.

Guys with spiky hair make her melt. But hush, hush, turn it up baby, make your move. You've got fever, this freaking beat's so hot.

If you've got something she's never seen, one shot, you gotta give her everything.

Only one condition before she moves. She's no longer your prey, but the predator.

With every move she makes, she keeps her hunting eyes on the game. When her target is finally found, now it's time to play.

No need to talk, when you're caught.

Games get a bit of that, where's the thunder at. Get in her track, she's game.

But remember there's one thing you should know, when she's in hot pursuit, her mission is you. You don't have to beg for more.

She doesn't turn back. She doesn't fear her past - Guess she delivers that.

She believes in fairytales, miracles and happily-ever-afters.

Don’t say no to her because she’ll make you say yes.

If you don't want her to go, try to convice her that she should stay.

She dislikes things like parting ways and saying goodbyes. The next time you leave her, instead of saying ‘bye’, say ‘I’ll see you again.’

She disappears one day...If you miss her, she misses you.
Basic courtesy.

She wants you to know that she loves her family and friends dearly. So, if you’re one of the above, you’re blessed!

What more can I say? God has given her many stepping stones. Lucky? She knows she's more than just that.

This gemini is a go-getter and a professional hairstylist/manga artist/animator/coast lifeguard wannabe.

She believes in dreaming. She believes that her moment will come, and when it does, here in this spotlight, she'll shine like a superstar.

She already lost half her life to sleep. Yes, she only realises it after waking up.

But, she is determined that her other half will be filled with her dreams, and of course, a little magic. Get to know her? Pick one: Email/Msn/Friendster/Facebook/Fictionpress

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